Sometimes, I am just not the person I want to be.
I make bad choices. I make selfish decisions. I put myself first. And I don’t like it. But sometimes, just because you don’t like what you’re doing, doesn’t make it reason enough to stop.
I do have everything in the world that I could have ever wished to have. An amazing husband, a beautiful baby girl, and a dog that everyone likes.
However, I often feel as though clothes is my weakness. And I know it might sound silly or ridiculous, but there are times when all you want is what you want, and you are not walking out of that store until you have it, and it’s yours. I have to learn to set it back down, and think about how I am going to be okay if it is not mine, if I don’t buy, and I don’t own it. I have to think of what that money could buy for my family, my husband, my daughter……even my dog.
I hate admitting it, but I am a selfish person sometimes.
Even though, happiness may be seeing the gumball you want roll into your hand, it is even more amazing when it does not roll into your hand. When you walk away from it and you are a better person- when you grow from it. Because God does know the bigger picture. And someday, maybe someday, I will be greatly rewarded from learning to walk away from the things that I want, and standing tall with the things I have.
James 5:16 Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.
